Monday, September 27, 2010

Confession

I was in a bad mood yesterday.

And my bad moods have been exponentially increasing with the exponential increase in homework.

The homework load is obviously not going away.

But these bad moods need to disappear.

Or else these next five years are going to be unbearably long.

In an attempt to tame the moodiness, I am trying to devise ways of staying positive and recognizing my triggers.

Common Bad Mood Triggers 
hungry = grumpy
tired = grumpy
(much like a two-year-old, eh?)
feeling overwhelmed/stressed = terrible mood which will be taken out on others
("others" most likely being Brian or family)
Getting on Facebook = increased likelihood that bad mood will occur
(why Facebook puts me in a bad mood is another blog for another day.)
Pity party = depression and bad mood
(pity party being my tendency to celebrate all things going wrong in my life. Failing to recognize the many blessings.)

My common bad mood triggers may apply to you as well.  Anyone who is tired, hungry, or stressed is likely going to feel moody. Some just let it be known more than others. And anyone who spends time focusing on the negative things in their life is going to be just that--negative!


Using this Knowledge: Real-Life Example
Saturday night I met up with Brian and friends at a restaurant in Chapel Hill to hang out and watch a pool tournament. I was at first excited to be going out--I had just worked five hours on a lab report. But mind you, I had watched a few hours of pool on Friday night and was again watching pool on Saturday night. Probably not my first choice of things I want to do, but I was in fact choosing to be there. If I wanted to leave, no one was stopping me. But instead I chose to stay.
Fast-forward to 1 am. Beyond tired. And beyond ready to be snuggled in bed with my boyfriend.
But Brian --being the night owl that he is--wanted to go to Sharky's. A pool hall. A pool hall that I often loathe.
Just as I used to love spending my whole life at Mill Creek Golf Club because I love golf, I love everything about golf, and it was the place where all my friends hung out (ok, and I was getting paid), I know Brian really enjoys hanging out at Sharky's.
So in my head, I equate Mill Creek (for me) to Sharky's (for Brian). This helps me understand why he like to spend his time there. He loves playing pool and he loves hanging out with his friends.
Saturday night I was tired, grumpy, and purposely acting miserable because we went to Sharky's.
I should have just went home and went to bed, since that is what I wanted to do, and not have cared if Brian wanted to stay out later and hang out at Sharky's, if that is what he wanted to do.

But instead I let my bad mood get the best of me.

And that bad mood carried over into Sunday......

And into today....

Ok, just kidding. It did carry over into Sunday, but not today. Today I am in a great mood....

For now.

 :-)

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